whats going on with my brain

Question
Hello...

ok when I drink,I drink to feel lose and it takes the part of my personality that makes me very cautious and uptight away. the only thing is when i finally reach that point, I cant figure out how to stop drinking so i just drink till I pass out. the other thing is I can have one drink and not remember the whole night. then I wake up to everybody telling me what I did which makes me sick seriously. also i do things like wake up crying for examle last night. i woke up crying asking "I want my baby" over and over and i dont even have kids or nothing like a baby.


Answer
Wendell,

   Thank you for your story.  You have hit the nail on the head - alcohol does shutdown parts of our personality and make us different persons.  The crux of the dilemma is this: Why not get and stay sober and find out what it is about that part of your personality that you feel you need to shutdown?  There are all sorts of reasons why this may be. Only you can find that out.  People are waiting to help you do that but you must make the commitment to admit you are powerless over alcohol and your life is unmanageable (by you).

   There are too many things to tell you about here.  My suggestion is to get to Alcoholics Anonymous (@ $1.00 suggested donation per meeting it is pretty cheap) or  treatment ($10,000 +) and begin to realize that you have a physical addiction to alcohol and a mental obsession which can not be broken by will power alone.  We all need help.

   Then you will begin to learn the effects of alcohol on your physiology.

   I hope this may have helped.

Grace and Peace,

Clyde